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Today would of marked J and my 2 year anniversary. Two years ago I thought I met the love of my life. I thought I would spend the rest of my life with her. Our love was fire and ice. When it was good it was amazing. When it was bad it was black and blues, with I hate yous.
Today is bittersweet, alternating between pure happiness and depression. I deserve more but I don’t want to look for him or her anymore. I’m ready for it to come to me.
I woke up happy this morning. I let out the bitter during my surf sesh. I talked to my creator and thanked him for everything; for leading me to this moment. After that he blessed me with two AMAZING rides.
I’m sad but I don’t regret the relationship. I learned a lot about myself. Now I am stronger, better and healthier. It is a happy 2 year anniversary but for a very different reason. It’s 2 years of self transformation. Congrats to me!
So I coped with the bitter in a productive way. I laughed. I built a friendship. I surfed. I forgave. I let go. I let God.
I am a generally a happy person again and oh boy does it feel just …. Wow!!